Quick Update

I ended up getting Sunday night off in exchange for working Sunday morning. It was godawful and boring, and I made a mere $45 for eight hours of work. Whoopety-doo. Sunday evening was a giant bad thing. I am not going to go into it but to say that I am sorry that Drew and Jason had to see it, and that it has worked out, for the most part. Anywho, I put in my notice at Best Buy, and my last day there is the 19th, a Saturday not far from now, and I may even be leaving early to help Barb and Bart (Christina's aunt and uncle) move to Fenton. This sucks since they won't be only four miles away... Well, time to go to Olive Garden for lunch and then to work at 4, then work two doubles in a row. My life is so packed with fun, I don't know what to do.

Fourth of July

And I am sitting here alone. Christina is off to her family gathering where she will have a lot of fun going to the belly-flop contest they have every year at Fenton Lake, and forget about me. She is pissed because I didn't get today off, even though I tried to get it off. Too many people had requested it off before me. Why I didn't try to work a day shift instead of evening? No clue. I wasn't sure if I was working Friday at Best Buy, so I couldn't request it in advance, and I just didn't think about it since Famous Dave's is my night job. I am still going to try to get the night off for tonight and Sunday (woo, then I won't make ANY money this week!) because Christina wanted me to. Why can't she tell me what days I should take off in advance? I mean, 4th of July was a no brainer, adn I tried, I really did! She says I am not trying hard enough, and I will be very lonely working my two jobs all of the time. I don't need this, it is not designed to make me happy or try to feel better about myself and make me a better person. It is just threatening and hurtful. Hurtful, the word of the week.

Don't Know How Much Longer

I can take this. Christina is getting extremely pissed off at me for every little thing. I honestly believe now that she is trying to find a reason to break it off with me once and for all. I have to change, I have to become the ideal that is in her head, even though she won't tell me what it is, I have to try harder. Yes, she is a god and very helpful woman, but she is not the be all end all to the world. I am hindered by her, for example: I don't play nerd games any more, I don't talk to Bud, Casey, or some other people because of her. Because she is dissatisfied with the fact that Jess and Dan didn't thank her profusely for the party she threw, she doesn't talk to them. She hates my mother, which nobody can understand. She thinks that our kids (if we ever have any) will never see my mom's family. But I still love her, love being with her, and want to be with her. Am I crazy? Can I make it alone? Do I want to? I don't want to be alone, I don't want to lose her for the good times we share. I don't want to lose her for the lazy mornings, the peaceful evenings, or the trips to Dairy Dan for Cherry Amaretto ice cream. Please, somebody, help me do what I need to do to make her and myself happy.

I Like Pie

I think everyone should love pie. Today was a fantabulous day. I got out of work early, got to see Jason for lunch (we went and had a Happy Meal at Malarky's, consisting of a burger, fries, and a Killians), play lots of Grand Theft Auto: Vice City, go out to dinner at Akasaka with Christina, Drew, and Nissa, as well as have pie and then watch the first episode of Rurouni Kenshin: Trust (for the second time today, the first was with Jason). A full day, indeed. Alas, all good things must come to an end, and my belly is very full and needing sleepy time to digest it all. I work a double tomorrow, followed by two nights, a double.... lovely. Must loosen pants, too much pie. I only had 2 slices, Drew had 2 plus the remnants of pie from the ladies. Piiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeee......